Life on Muttr ( page 1 )

More so it was a product of what happened to me as a kid ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I came from a family of entrepreneurs and thinkers, but I was cursed with an ugly face ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I am about to work out my dream. I am so excited, but I need to keep it hush hush so I can just disappear.. Someday soon I will be in a different world witha whole new set of humans to cherish instead of the black hole crawling with judgemental f*** ups.

I am so close to beginning my dream ❤

Does anyone else have moments where they don't understand jokes? I often have to have jokes explained to me.... And I take sarcasm very literally. It usually only happens when I'm really tired, hungry or angry. I wish I wasn't like this.

Please leave me alone I want to sleep in peace.

This is all I have to live with

I feel like every important decision I've made in my life has been the wrong one.

Am I too boring?? I'm really self conscious and my friends always tell me to hang out with them but every time I do I just stay boring? and most of the time I am bored and now my friends have friends that I hardly know so it's even harder now because of my self consciousness :/ My friend just asked me to go swim at his girls friends house with them but I said no :/

To be honest, I am really considering dating my friend because he is just so damn sweet, but I must admit that I am not attracted to him.....

Honestly, one of my fantasies lately have been to find a really hot guy and ask him if he could teach me how to suck his D. I know that sounds weird, but I feel like I would be more comfortable if it wasn't someone I knew. Essentially, it would be like a friend with benefits situation. I know that in real life it would not work though because the guy would probably end up being a disrespectful douchebag.

It's almost impressive how effectively I've self destructed.

I hope your okay. I never want anything bad to happen to you. Mildly bad is okay nothing that will ruin your day.
I'm realistic.


I wanna kill myself

Something about how I hate myself.

I was about to type something important but now I can't remember it...

boy oh boy i love being ignored. don't you?

i am worthless.

Why am I here? I didn't ask to be born and my parents can't give me a valid reason for my existence. God doesn't answer. No one has a reasonable explanation but yet I have to face being a human being everyday.... daughter of TWO narcs, wife of a silent man (who maybe wants to have kids... the world may never know), friendless, jobless (by choice). I hate that the majority of the world is enslaved and I can't just say what's on my mind without being looked at like I'm crazy. Y... read more

I do stupid crap- like open up to people. And i have trust issues and people ask me why i dont open up to people and thats because everyone i open up to leaves me.

Why would you go to a party when you dont know anyone expt for 2 people and your enemys. And the 2 people you know raerly talk to you.